While I was listening to the Homily that the Deacon was giving on Saturday, during mass. I had this overwhelming feeling for forgiveness. There is only one person in my life that it took me a very long time to forgive. My ex-husband! What he had done to me was very hurtful and embarrassing, for me. I am Catholic, so the first time that I got married, I got married in the Catholic church. Marriage lasted only 6/7 months but were together as a couple since I was a senior in high school. Together for 7 years. We were into 7 months of marriage when he decided to pay more attention to one of his employees and ends up getting her pregnant while were married. Got married on July 13, 1996 and divorced by October 1997.
Anyways, I was in mass last weekend and I decided that I really want to be married thru the Catholic Church w/my husband, who I have been married to for 11 years w/an awesome 11 year old son. In order for me to do that, I really need to get the Annulment going. I started it about a year and a half ago but I just didn't follow thru with it. I need to get at least 3 witness who saw me through all the heartache to write a letter to the diocese. And also need $700.00. And that is hard to save up, especially when we are on one income right now. While I was listening to the Deacon, I thought of my ex-husband. He could help me pay for half of it. His new wife comes from a die hard Catholic family. They go to the same church as we do.
I just need to get the courage to confront him about doing this. I don't see why it should be an issue since I was stuck w/all his stuff that was sent into collections. And this was paid by my husband & I. Do you think its wrong of me to ask for this from him? My husband doesn't think so.
In my daily prayers, I would like God to give the courage to speak to my ex-husband. I forgive him for what he has done. But I think there is still a little hurt in me because he was my first love and I trusted him. But now, I am in a better place w/my lovely husband and my wonderful son.
Does this sound weird????
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